Nothing profound...just the last couple of days, I have been okay with it.
So go ahead ask me how I am doing and I will honestly say - Thanks for asking, I am doing just fine! :)

It's been a long time...but it's taken me this long to truly digest and figure out how I am.
Everyone asks me - How are you doing?
I always faked it and just said I was fine and all is doing well.
All is doing well...but I don't know yet that I am fine with it all.

There are moments that are very easy, and I do feel okay. I truly feel like this all happened for a reason. I feel positive about the day to day accomplishments I have.

Then there are moments that are very hard, and I do not feel okay. I am frustrated and don't understand why this had to happen to me. I can only see all the "I Can'ts" and forget all the things I actually can do.

And one of the last things I want to hear right now is about how much insight I am gaining for when I am a therapist. Oh the empathy I will be able to show my patients because I know exactly what they are going through. Well, right now I AM THE PATIENT! And I hate it!!!! I know that someday, I will have a patient that I can relate so much to...but right now, I am on the table and going through this and not on the rollie stool giving instructions.

In the long run, I know that I will be fine with it all and I can give an honest answer of - I am fine and everything is going so well.
But today...today, I am not fine with this!

But until then:
Colosians 1:11
[We pray] that you may be invigorated and strengthened with all power according to the might of His glory, [to exercise] every kind of endurance and patience (perseverance and forbearance) with joy.

How quickly things can change...
In the time it takes to fall from a standing position to crumpled on the ground, so much can change!

Long story short: I had a bad knee that turned out to be a horrible knee. I was standing with all my weight on the bad knee when it decided to buckle. I went down fast and hard! During the fall, my foot got crumpled underneath me.

An ER visit, x-rays, a visit to the orthopedic surgeon, mri for my knee and my foot, and a cat scan later....torn acl, partially torn mcl, medial meniscus damage, medial condyle fracture all in my knee, and torn liz franc ligament and dislocated bones in my foot.

This summer was suppose to bring adventures and family memory time n OKC with the grandparents. It was suppose to bring great clinical experiences and learning opportunities at OU Med Center. Now it brings two surgeries and long rehabs!!!

First surgery scheduled for Thurs afternoon to fix my foot. Then about three weeks after that, surgery for acl recontruction and clean up of the other issues in the knee.

How quickly it all changed...but the Good Lord doesn't give more than I can handle...it just isn't an easy road ahead...

I do so love my momma! She is the best!!!

Looking forward to...

~ Owning a house...no more obnoxious duplex neighbors!!!!!!

~ Having evenings not interrupted by homework.

~ Buying a new car...I think it will be fun to get the exact car I want (not that I am dogging our sweet Buick deal)

~ Working with patients and getting paid for it!

~ Vacations! Real vacations where we can actually afford to do things!

~ Having a backyard and a hammock in the shade!

~ Having little ones...but I am in no hurry and no I am not pregnant right now! (That was for you Jody!)

~ Getting a dog. I want a miniature schnauzer b/c they are so cute!

~ Brian maybe someday working a normal schedule...that would be nice...

Self-Revelation

I discovered today while in church, that I am indeed, uncomfortable around guys with long hair. I'm not talking shaggy hair, but long hair...like you could put it in a ponytail or use a straightener on it.

A man was sitting in front of me today that had hair longer than mine has ever been. It was wavy and shiny (in a healthy way, not a greasy way). And all I could think of was that it might touch me if he leaned any further back!

So moral of the story, and by moral I just mean the end, I think guys should not have hair longer than my pinky finger!

Working with high schoolers never ceases to amaze me! Here are some tidbits of info I gleamed during the last couple of days:

~If you have just recently gotten a new hairstyle and wear a sexy outfit to ask a guy to prom...he will say yes.
~ It is apparently now acceptable to spend the weekend at your boyfriend's house.
~ It is not necessary to wear closed toed shoes, long pants, or a jacket when it is 45 degrees, wind blowing, and raining.
~ If your mom and dad (who are divorced) get into a fight over the phone, it is to be expected that your mom will take it out on you...most likely by hitting you. (This one broke me heart!!! b/c the first time I met this girl she had a black eye which I assumed was from basketball, but now I don't know for sure.)
~ The new "it" thing to call a significant other is "babes" and not babe like it was back in my day.
~ Kids who have left the crappy little town I work in, desire to come back b/c they miss it. (This too makes me sad b/c this town is seriously a hole in the wall, backwards town that has nothing to offer these kids. I want to take them all away and make them believe that they deserve better!)
~ Number 18 from a certain school does indeed look amazing in those baseball pants!

So there you have it...some new knowledge to gain from high school kids...not all fun, but all very real to them.

And speaking of high school kids, it's amazing to think that 8 years ago today, Brian and I were just some dumb high school kids that decided to start dating and go to prom together. So I guess there is still hope for those dumb high school kids to grow up and become productive, loving adults.